asshole

Miranda: I'm an asshole

Steve: Yea, you are but you're my asshole.

Miranda: That's sweet and disgusting at the same time.

from Sex & the City

work work work

I'm suppose to do work + assignments + preparations for exam but
I keep thinking of going out

keep thinking of having company

keep thinking of buying something nice

keep thinking of running around outside

keep thinking of my lumpy self

keep thinking of reasons for me feeling sad

I am bored..
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bored...bored... BORED...!!!

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part.

in short

• Lunch in Glenhuntly

• Chilled in Beer Garden at St Kilda

• Dinner at TGI Fridays in Chapel Street

• Movie at Jam Factory (Caught stupid "House Bunny")

• Caught in the rain and all drenched wet at home
  

long day

Yesterday was extremely exhausting for me. I had to take a panadol in between to survive through it.

We went to catch the Royal Melbourne Show which was an annual event held here. It's pretty outta town so we had to take the train there. On the way to the city, it was freaking crowded with people wearing blue or yellow, all heading towards Richmond for the footy finals. Footy's a very big thing in Melbourne. People here really go all out to support their favorite teams. Even my cousin ditched me to go for the finals with his friends. :(

The carnival ground.. p.s: I'm really starting to hate the peace sign.

The Cola Arena. They have horses here which are ridden by pros.

So I ended up going with Wendy and a couple of her friends. Deep down inside I was so hoping that she would not bring anybody from China but she did. It's not that I'm so against them but they're just people who tend to stick so much to themselves and they're like so timidly sissy. I can't stand it. They would not even want to ride any of the rides saying that they're too scared blah blah blah...

Honestly, it was pretty OK. I did not really have that much fun because everybody seem so unenthusiastic to do anything but just complain about the weather and being tired. Half the time we were walking round and round looking for places that we wanna go to catch certain shows.

Me and my baby goat


There're actually tons of baby pigs behind us.


My favorite part of the day. Hitting some balls in the baseball cage. I think I was like the only Asian girl who went for it... hee. Miss a couple of balls because I was so rusty but managed to hit a couple a least.

Seriously, they have so many events there. From animal shows to carnival games to small booths selling stuff and food to roller coaster rides and tons more. I would consider going there again next year with much better company though.


That night, we went to Derabin Arts and Theater for Shanti's indian dance performance. We were late and had to sneak in to the back seats. We managed to watch the other dances but they were all really traditional indian dances. This is the first time seeing so many Indians gathered together like that in Melbourne. haha. Shanti was a awesome though.


By the way, I locked myself outta my room and had to stand under the rain and wind at 12 midnight to wait for the Monash security.

a little adventure

As you all know, I have an extremely bad sense of direction so I had to print out a map to get to the nearest Post Office.
I woke up early this morning to take that little journey while the sun is still shining and the weather is still warm.

I'm staying at the little red dot just beside Emo Road. haha. Cute name for a street, huh? I had to point it out. Anyway, this is my neighborhood with a big park in the middle which I have never seen before because I'm too lazy to just walk there. Monash University is actually across the Princess Highway so it's actually just a short walk from my place to Uni.

Anyway, after the half an hour walk back and forth, I finally got my prize...!!!



heee.. cool huh. My legs look extra short though. I think its because of the camera angle.

damn the weather again

Melbourne Forecast

summary	Tue Sep 23	Wed Sep 24	Thu Sep 25	Fri Sep 26	Sat Sep 27	Sun Sep 28	Mon Sep 29
	Showers	Mostly sunny	Mostly sunny	Late shower	Showers	Showers	Possible shower
maximum	17°C	19°C	24°C	25°C	18°C	18°C	17°C
minimum	8°C	7°C	9°C	12°C	12°C	10°C	8°C

chance of rain	40%		20%		10%		60%		70%		50%		40%
likely amount	<>		<>		<>		1-5mm		5-10mm		<>		<>
uv index	Moderate		High		High		High		Moderate		Moderate		High
frost risk	Nil		Nil		Nil		Nil		Nil		Nil		Nil
	9am	3pm	9am	3pm	9am	3pm	9am	3pm	9am	3pm	9am	3pm	9am	3pm
wind speed	11 km/h	5 km/h	7 km/h	6 km/h	18 km/h	19 km/h	23 km/h	19 km/h	5 km/h	13 km/h	13 km/h	11 km/h	n/a	n/a
wind direction	W	WSW	NW	NW	N	N	NNW	WNW	WSW	WSW	SW	S	n/a	n/a
relative humidity	62%	43%	41%	34%	48%	39%	46%	30%	87%	44%	55%	36%	n/a	n/a
dew point	3°C	2°C	3°C	3°C	6°C	7°C	9°C	6°C	9°C	4°C	6°C	3°C	n/a	n/a

This so annoying... Look at the temperature difference between the maximum & the minimum temperature!
The weather is starting to annoy me again. It's suppose to be spring!!!
It was sunny this morning and when I came outta lecture.. But when I came outta lecture..it was pouring and I was freezing my ass off. I had to get my friend to send me home because I forgot to bring my stupid umbrella.

I'm still freezing here... It's suppose to be spring! I wore a pretty scarf on my head today and it fucking blew off when I came out. Sheesh... !!!

It's so cold I refused to go to Clayton for class...

assignments

Assignments... assignments... assignments...!!!


p.s: picture's from deviant art.. so yea, I'm not a smoker.

pretty flowers

Everyday when I walk to school, I always pass by peoples' houses and their unkempt gardens. You may assume that it might be an ugly sight but honestly, it's not because the weather really affects the flowers, trees and grass. Today, there were pretty yellow flowers on the grass. I'm sure it wasn't there yesterday but it was there this morning!

I was so amazed I had to stop and take a photo.

so cute right?

dilemma

Would you choose to explore or be more successful?

Would you choose to open your mind or fit in?

Would you choose to stay or go?

A double degree with CPA or single degree with a US masters?

BIG DILEMMA!!!

i wonder

Ever wished for a prettier you?
























a thinner you?

























to be so sure?





















when love is enough?























to find true and everlasting happiness?

it's not car this time

I was on my way to Clayton as usual, taking the shuttle bus. As soon as I arrived, I quickly walk down the bus and directly towards the Uni when somebody called me from behind. Oh no, it's the same China guy who stopped me last week

Stupid China guy: Excuse me.. er.. last week.. we same bus! same bus twice! ah.. I see you again.. every time I take tis bus.. er.. can I have your number? ah.. if you no boyfriend.. er.. you veli beautiful.. I think you veli.. er.. my type.. I no selling.. no promoting.. I wanna be friend. Can give me number? er..I not promoting product.. Can ar? your number?

Me: (looking confuse and trying to process what he was talking about) Erm.. I have a boyfriend.

Stupid China guy: Oh... I think I bad luck today ar... veli bad luck. Nevermind ar.. thank you.


I really admire his guts mann... England so fucked up also dare to ask for number. *faints

love

Everybody deserves to love to be loved.

Don't regret of the times of happiness just because you're in pain.
Don't forget the sweet words that made you feel complete just because you're never hearing them again.
Don't throw away the things that you hold so deeply just because it's all over.

It's alright to cry. It's alright to feel pain. It's alright to feel hurt.
It may seem like the end of the world, like apart of you is torn off and time would seem to pass so slowly.
Easier said then done, just take your time, as long as you need to heal your broken heart but don't lose track of time and your future. Let it be an inspiration, a motivation and mainly a lesson. Don't hurt yourself for it. It may seem right to you but others might think you're a fool. After all, they're plenty of fishes in the sea. Live your life!

I never believed in the one. I don't encourage you to believe in it too. If it does not work, accept it and let it go. Things happen for a reason. Just trust your instincts. Before you know it, you'll be head over heels on cloud 9 again. :)

Dedicated to all the broken hearts in the world.. *hugs and kisses

blissful trip

Have you ever thought of an ideal holiday? A getaway from all the stress, sorrows and pain of life.

My ideal trip would be on the beach where and sun is shining brightly to warm your skin but not too bright to hurt you. Where the winds would blow softly through your hair and while you close your eyes, you could hear the sounds of the waves from the ocean.

We would have a rented villa with a bunch of my friends there. Maybe twenty or more, running around in our bikini's and Speedo's, warming our feet on the sand. We would have beach games of course and play until the sun sets and we'll watch it while leaning closely among each other or our lovers.

We would have a fabulous barbecue dinner together. Cooking and laughing together, not being afraid of dirtying ourselves. We would have candles lighted up on the tables and we would drink to our hearts desire.

As it gets dark, we would play in the house, get pissed drunk, play truth or dare, dance around with the music blasting loudly or simply chilling around and catching up with each other. Finally, we will fall fast asleep all around the house together.


It really seems a little like my redang trip with my college friends last year. My god, how I really miss my friends and the warm weather.

gladiator craze

I went to ebay a few days ago and purchased two pairs of gladiator sandals!
They are so freaking cheap compared to those that are selling here like in Sports Girl, a normal pair would cost at least 60 dollars or more. What a rip off right.
These two pairs are very simple looking ones but I love them.!



















This is mid calf pair.
It cost only 24 dollars!




















and these a pair of gladiator flats.
20 dollars!

But they still can't beat the Steve Madden pair I bought. Got it for a good price because I'm VIP. Even Kate Moss is wears it! hee.. Mine's white though



















Check out the other celebs wearing gladiators too.















































Yea.. yea. Apparently, the Olsen twin is a gladiator icon.
I wish the stupid weather will be warmer and STAY warm or else I won't be able to wear them.

tegan and sara

Tegan and Sara Australian Tour 2009 Tegan and Sara 8 Jan Metro Theatre NSW 9 Jan The Palace Theatre VIC 11 Jan HQ SA Tegan and Sara Australian Tour 2009 Tegan and Sara @ The Palace Theatre 9 Jan 2009 ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn it la... I'm not around... ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

real sign of spring

I was awoken by Monica's message at 8 am this morning! Stupid girl does not seem to understand the beauty of sleep.
She insisted on going for the earlier class so that we could work on our 2nd Commercial Law assignment after that.

On the way to Uni, it was so windy.. I really do mean EXTREMELY windy..!! I was almost blown off the pathway. Flowers from trees and dust were all blowing all around me. I thought my hair was gonna get pulled off and I had to keep my head down so that the dirt won't get blown into my eyes. I was struggling to go to Uni, seriously.

In the late evening on the way back, it was so warm. I never felt so warm before. The sun was still shining but it feel W-A-R-M. I think it was about 23 degrees? I was so happy. I think this time Monica thought I was crazy.

I'm sitting currently sitting at my balcony enjoying the weather. :)















along with the stupid view in front of me...

P.S: I guess Monica's not so bad after all. We got a HD for our first assignment. Half a mark away from 100%. Can you believe it.. :)

studying companion

This is official my favorite studying companion:





So delicious!

So comforting!

So FATTENING!!!

single or attached

It's not that I don't like being attached or don't enjoy being attached.

I don't want to make it seem like I'm restricted from doing or saying certain things.

It's really odd you know, like all of my housemates are single, horny and crazy except for Dineo who is married and has kids.
Just a while ago, they were talking about a fuck list; a list compromising guys they don't mind fucking whether celebrities or guys they do know. It seems fun to talk and laugh about it but I'll feel weird joining them because I would feel somewhat guilty talking about it. It's not just about this kinda small things that make me feel weird, you know.

The single girls are always talk about the opposite sex. Everything is about a CUTE guy. Always... They'll be screaming and talking to loudly about it. If not, it's always somehow about sex although only one of them is sexual active.

I'm in my late teens turning into my 20's soon. Am I missing out on things by being attached? Moreover in a Long Distance Relationship (LDR)? It's not all about boys only but what about other things in my life?

I know it's really unfair to my other half for me to talk about this so often but I do wonder about it a lot of times although I know he's really good and understanding and reasonable and not controlling kind which I am extremely grateful about. Even so, I can't imagine him being out of my life. It'll feel so incomplete because our relationship has already grown in me. Taking it away would be breaking my arm off or something. I wish he was here with me though, things would be so wonderful...

Since young, I'm not exact the boy crazy type, I guess. I do have my limits. I'll probably have crushes once in a while but definitely not going crazy for every cute guy that passes me.

When I first arrived here, one of the very first questions asked by my housemates were whether I was single and when they found out I was in a LDR for the next two years, Shanti was like "In the mean time, YOU need to get some action...".

I have to admit, I do check out other guys but most of those that I'm attracted to are those with similar traits as YOU. It might be the height or the hair or the dressing style. It's so weird. I tend to check out cute Chinese guys then White guys although there are tons of cute white boys whom my housemates go drooling after.
In the mean time, I guess I'll have to pretend YOU're here, somehow... although I wish YOU were really here...




















P.S: I feel bad talking about this over and over again. Been blogging too much about my relationship. I promise I'll calm down for a while.